Not A Relaunch

Friends and Family!

I'm back!

Yes, I know its been a minute but I'm so glad I took some time away! It's been...7 months since I've wrote a single word, made an episode of "A Word with Ang" or made any real content if I'm being honest. However, this break wasn't taken because I didn't have anything to chat about. If I'm being honest I was doing quite a bit of living in between. I think I really just needed to step away from A Word and focus on living life strictly for that purpose.

When I relaunched A Word as a whole, I was at a place where I was trying to figure out my next move in life. Stick to the same ole or venture into something else? Rather than make that decision, I poured a large portion of my attention and effort into A Word. I put the hard shit on the back burner and called myself focusing on my passion. Was A Word doing great as a result? Absolutely. But I was slacking off on the important things like taking care of my health both mentally and physically, having fun for the sake of having fun etc, etc. Long story short I was avoiding life thus the long ass break.

I'd always planned on coming back to A Word because let's be real, writing is my passion and I couldn't leave my baby for too long. But I had to return under better circumstances. I had to return with higher confidence than before and with a newfound willingness to commit to consistency. I had to return with better balancing skills! If I was going to return I was going to come back better, period.

So you guys know me, I learn a lesson whenever possible so this is what I've learned during my break (straight from my notes):

• Stop looking for inspiration anywhere but within yourself! I am truly my biggest inspiration. If I look at where I am mentally and creatively today, compared to where I was last year...the growth is immense. Baby girl has come a long way and its about time I give myself some credit.

• Stop worrying about looking stupid within your creative process! What did SZA say, "Your fear of looking stupid is holding you back" HEARD! When I tell you guys...I haven't created it because I didn't want to be out here looking goofy?! BOOOOOO! Shame! Like what do I look like recording out in the streets? Baby, like every other content creator doing what they need to do to get those shots! Why would anyone wanna see this less than aesthetic space you're working out of? Because everyone has to start somewhere and your current aesthetic may be someone else's reality as well. I'm bothering my friends because I'm filming or taking pictures? SO! If they supported you and what you do they'd be cheering you on rather than yelling at you because they're hungry and their brunch is getting cold.

• YOUR MOVES DO NOT NEED TO BE SHARED WITH EVERYOOONE! Being excited and all that is great, but babe everyone is not going to wish you well. Everyone is not going to take the information you're giving them and see the same value in it that you do and that's perfectly okay (also you're sensitive and that shit is gonna make you sad). Just pop out with what you have going on and lead yourself.

All that said to say this, I've been trusting and staying true to myself during this time. I know shit isn't always going to be easy and I definitely know what the beginning of a new chapter feels like, so Welcome to Chapter...who knows, Page 1.