A Word Fam what’s going on!
Listen, ya girl has been B U S Y!
And although it’s been a bit overwhelming, I remember a time where I didn’t have much going on and I’m grateful to be in a different space now.
Last time I checked in with you guys I was in a season of transition and the feelings that went with those changes were kicking my ass. But I’m happy to report that the ass whooping was what I needed because I feel like I’m finally at that stage where I’m thriving. Very much still going through it, but in a more positive way.
Let me explain…
I told you guys that I quit my job working with the kiddos and although I miss it so much and I miss my lil babies, I know that it was the best decision for me.
The new job is soooo different. Being in an office, surrounded by so many different people has its pros and cons but I can say my biggest take away thus far is its teaching me how to plan effectively. Professionally planning is cool but it’s starting to affect the way I move in my personal life and I kinda like that!Â
One thing I can say I’m fighting with is feeling like I’m always on go. Even when I’m clocked out and at home with the full intention of chilling and doing nothing….I somehow find a way to fill that time. Whether I’m watching a video on content strategy or finding little things to do around the house, I don’t know how to be still anymore so I’m gonna have to find that balance again. Other than that, I’m in a cool space there. I feel a little drive that I didn’t feel before and it’s definitely welcomed feeling.
Ohh, I may have forgot to let you guys know that I FINALLY STARTED MY YOUTUBE JOURNEY!!! A Word with Ang has hit the Tube!
Queue the applause!
Yes, I finally took that leap and dropped a video for the entire world to see!
As, nervous as I was and still am to be honest, dropping that video was such a testament to my journey here at A Word: The Blog. I started this blog on pure fuck it vibes. I wanted a place to express myself and connect with my people and one day in Feb. 2020 I said girl what’s stopping you? I had to remind myself constantly that I was doing this for me and had the same talk with myself about dropping my first video.
Building the channel and maintaining a following will be challenging I know, but that portion isn’t worrying me so much. I genuinely only feel excitement in that area and that’s weird to me believe it or not. I’m not second guessing what I’m posting, there’s no doubtful inner dialogue, I’m just ready to have fun with it. And when it gets to a large scale I plan to maintain that feeling of enjoyment. If I take things too seriously the fun part won’t translate anymore. I saw it happen here on the blog and that switch up hurt but I completely understood. The switch in mindset really showed itself in what I was writing and the authenticity flew out the window. Now I’m here trying to restore it and those that have stuck around to see the return of my passion have my heart forever.
Overall I’m at a really great place mentally. I’m in my most creative space which is where I T H R I V E. Being in my creative bag and coming up with new ideas, finding new ways to execute those ideas, spending hours creating, spending free time thinking about creating…. that’s the shit that makes me happy and keeps me sane if I’m being honest.
So this word is not only a life update but a moment for me to sit and really think about how grateful I am for this season of my life. Thankful to God for doing what needs to be done always and for keeping me afloat even when I feel like I’m barely keeping my head above water. I’m just full of gratitude and I’m gonna keep it there and move on before I cry.
Here are a few things to take with you until next time:
-You don’t have to be great to start but you have to start to be great. Read that 2x.
-Do that thing you’ve been wanting to do. Stop waiting and just do that shit.
-Be gracious with yourself.
-Don’t look back because that’s not the direction you’re headed.